Sunlit Water

February 4, 2007

Bad News On The Doorstep

Filed under: Dating,Personal — by teofilo @ 1:06 am

It’s the little things that get to me.  Earlier this evening I looked over at my wall calendar and realized it was still on January, so I changed it.  Doing that always makes me a little sad, because it reminds me that there’s another nice picture on the calendar that no one else will ever see.  Every month I think about the reaction someone might have to seeing the picture on my calendar, and every month no one ends up seeing that picture.

Right now I’m at a point where I no longer really care about finding a girlfriend, but the loneliness is still there on some level, waiting to be brought out by the little things that mark the passing of time.



  1. Christ, that’s depressing, teo! You should really invite some folks over, and hang the calendar in a prominent place.

    I remember when I was in a similar place, and it was not fun times. Loneliness ends, it does.

    Comment by mrh — February 4, 2007 @ 1:29 am |Reply

  2. I’ve had folks over, but never in my room. It’s not well-designed for hanging out.

    Comment by teofilo — February 4, 2007 @ 1:36 am |Reply

  3. This is how I felt about moving out of my last apartment. All that time and no one outside of my immediate family, who helped me move, had seen it.

    I’m sorry. But you really have to believe (on some level) that it will end. I don’t know what else to say.

    Comment by eb — February 4, 2007 @ 1:38 am |Reply

  4. Oh, I’m sure it’ll end. This doesn’t bother me most of the time, but certain things remind me of it from time to time. Milestones.

    Comment by teofilo — February 4, 2007 @ 1:42 am |Reply

  5. Yes, people being in your space and observing your lair is strangely important.

    Comment by ac — February 4, 2007 @ 1:52 am |Reply

  6. If it’s a nice picture, you should cut it out and frame it.

    Comment by Stanley — February 4, 2007 @ 3:24 pm |Reply

  7. I fail to see how that would solve the problem of no one seeing it.

    Comment by teofilo — February 4, 2007 @ 3:41 pm |Reply

  8. Well, it will last for more than a month. More exposure time, more likely to be seen. Plus, maybe you’ll meet someone nice at the frame store.

    Comment by Stanley — February 4, 2007 @ 3:59 pm |Reply

  9. Or you could hang it in your living room, for the people who come over but not into your room.

    Comment by Matt W — February 4, 2007 @ 5:29 pm |Reply

  10. Okay, that would solve the one problem.

    Comment by teofilo — February 4, 2007 @ 5:55 pm |Reply

  11. You could move to a studio apartment.

    Comment by Matt F — February 5, 2007 @ 2:08 am |Reply

  12. I have frequently cut out pretty pictures from calendars and framed them. One of the pictures currently hanging in my bedroom in D.C. was formerly part of a calendar.

    Comment by Becks — February 5, 2007 @ 7:12 pm |Reply

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