Sunlit Water

December 2, 2006

Oh, What The Hell

Filed under: Personal — by teofilo @ 7:58 pm

It’s been slow around the blogs this weekend (like most weekends, actually), so I guess I’ll tackle this meme.  It’s a long one, so I’m putting it below the fold.

What is your idea of perfect happiness?

Sharing a home and a life with a loving and devoted partner, either in a big city surrounded by people or in the middle of nowhere surrounded by nothing.  The important thing would be to have each other.

What is your greatest fear?

Dying a lonely virgin.

What historical figure do you most identify with?

So many to choose from.  I’ll say Meriwether Lewis, for a variety of reasons.

Which living person do you most admire?

George Soros.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?

Lack of motivation.  I wish I could get myself to do the things I know I should do, but for some reason I can’t.

What trait do you most deplore in others?

Unreliability.  When I ask someone to do something, I expect them to do it, dammit.  If they can’t be sure they’ll be able to do it, they shouldn’t agree to take it on.

What is your greatest extravagance?

Eating out.  I really like to eat in restaurants, and would do so much more frequently than I do now if I could afford it.  I used to buy a lot of books, but I stopped when I realized I was buying them faster than I could read them.

On what occasion do you lie?

Rarely.  I do lie sometimes, but I don’t see any particular pattern to the situations.  More often I just withhold certain facts that I see no need for the person to know.

What do you most dislike about your appearance?

All the body hair.  I know it’s not that big a deal, but I do envy those guys who look so sleek and hairless.

What is your favorite journey?

I like long drives to distant places full of adventure.  I drive alone and don’t have a radio, so it’s very quiet and peaceful and I can hear myself think.  I often sing to myself.

What do you consider the most overrated virtue?


Which living person do you most despise?

I’ll say Bush.  There are people I know personally that I dislike, but I don’t think I despise any of them.

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?

“Actually,” “really,” “I think.”

What is your greatest regret?

I regret so many of the decisions I’ve made that it’s hard to even begin to choose one.  I guess I’ll say not realizing sooner that I could indeed be attractive to women if I just put a little bit of effort into how I present myself.

What or who is the greatest love of your life?

Someday I hope to be able to answer this question.

When and where were you happiest?

The brief period in high school when I had a girlfriend was the happiest time of my life.  I’d give anything to feel that way again.

Which talent would you most like to have?

The ability to just walk up to people and start talking to them.  Being able to do that would have served me well so many times in my life.

What is your current state of mind?

Relieved that the semester is effectively over and I’m no longer under so much stress, but still lonely and a little sad.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I would make myself bolder and more outgoing.  Shyness is doing me no good at all.

If you could change one thing about your family, what would it be?

I often wish we could be just a little bit happier.

If you were to die and come back as a person or thing, what would it be?

No idea.  I’ve never really thought about it.

If you could choose what or who to come back as, what would it be?

I think being a woman would be interesting.  Difficult, of course.

What do your consider your greatest achievement?

Making it this far in one piece.

What is your most treasured possession?

The Pendleton coat that was my grandfather’s and was given to me by his best friend.  I don’t wear it much because I don’t want it to get wet, but it’s very special to me.

What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?

Unrelieved loneliness forever.  Luckily, I haven’t experienced it myself.

What is your most marked characteristic?

Physically, I suppose this would be my eyes.  They’re bright blue and have a sort of piercing quality.

What is the quality you most like in a man?

Friendliness, I guess, or at least not being a total jerk.  I haven’t given much thought to how I feel about men.

What is the quality you most admire in a woman?

Independence and the ability to make her own way in the world despite the obstacles she encounters.

What do you most value in your friends?

The way they accept me and make me feel comfortable around them.

Who are your favourite writers?

Melville, Kafka, Hardy, Sterne

Who is your favourite hero of fiction?

Ralph Ellison’s Invisible Man.

Who are your heroes in real life?

People who actually do things to make the world a better place, either by donating money or by going out there and helping in person.  I am not one of these people.

What are your favourite names?

I like obscure, interesting names.  Biblical names are nice, especially the ones people don’t use much anymore.

What is it that you most dislike?

Feeling like I don’t belong somewhere.  I seriously hate this feeling.

How would you like to die?


What is your motto?

The world is a harsh and brutal place, full of beauty.



  1. Unreliability.
    So I really can’t be late.

    Aw. What do you sing to yourself?

    Overrated = Chastity.
    AMEN! (I can’t stress that enough. I almost feel lovers owe it to me to have sex with each other. Going without when they don’t have to is an affront to me. Somehow.)

    Regret: How did you present yourself so that it was a disadvantage?

    This probably doesn’t help, but shyness is cuuute.

    Please don’t come back as a woman. We need guys like you.

    Comment by ~Macarena~ — December 2, 2006 @ 10:18 pm |Reply

  2. Being late isn’t a problem. I’m talking about bigger stuff.

    I generally sing the American folk songs I have memorized. “Plastic Jesus,” “My Darling Clementine,” that sort of thing.

    It’s not so much specific things I did that put me at a disadvantage (though wearing glasses definitely didn’t help), it was more just that I hadn’t realized that paying more attention to my appearance and acting confident would be good things to do.

    I’m not going to be coming back at all, so what I come back as is pretty academic. But thanks.

    Comment by teofilo — December 2, 2006 @ 10:25 pm |Reply

  3. I think it depends on what type of glasses, though ultimately, people you like become increasingly attractive.

    If you had the chance to come back, you wouldn’t?

    Comment by ~Macarena~ — December 2, 2006 @ 10:31 pm |Reply

  4. A lot of people look good in glasses. I am not one of them.

    If I had a chance to come back, I would, but I believe very strongly that I will not have such a chance.

    Comment by teofilo — December 2, 2006 @ 10:35 pm |Reply

  5. Shyness is cute, but shyness can stop you from doing all the things in life you’d like to.

    Comment by Matt Weiner — December 3, 2006 @ 1:36 am |Reply

  6. That’s what I’ve noticed. I’m not crazy about shyness.

    Comment by teofilo — December 3, 2006 @ 1:38 am |Reply

  7. *

    Comment by Matt Weiner — December 3, 2006 @ 2:04 am |Reply

  8. Is there something you’d like to tell me, Matt?

    Comment by teofilo — December 3, 2006 @ 2:06 am |Reply

  9. Tim wants you.

    Comment by Matt Weiner — December 3, 2006 @ 2:26 am |Reply

  10. That you’re too young to recognize a Smith’s reference? Man, I even heard his voice and the melody as I read #5.

    (Teo, The Smith’s were a broody pop band in the 80’s. You put them on to cheer yourself up after listening to Joy Division for hours on end.)

    Comment by Megan — December 3, 2006 @ 2:27 am |Reply

  11. I know who the Smiths are, I’ve just never heard any of their music.

    Comment by teofilo — December 3, 2006 @ 2:40 am |Reply

  12. You put them on to cheer yourself up after listening to Joy Division for hours on end.


    No such thing as being too young to recognize a Smiths reference. That’s like saying someone is too young to recognize a Beatles reference.

    Comment by Matt F — December 3, 2006 @ 3:30 am |Reply

  13. Take that! Or, I should probably say, take that!

    Comment by Matt Weiner — December 3, 2006 @ 10:06 am |Reply

  14. I still had Shyness is Nice in my head at market, so I walked around singing “Cabbage is nice, and cabbage can stop you…”.

    Thanks, Matt!

    Comment by Megan — December 3, 2006 @ 2:08 pm |Reply

  15. When I was a kid, cabbage prevented me from achieving one of the most important goals of my life: finishing my vegetables at dinner.

    Comment by eb — December 3, 2006 @ 2:40 pm |Reply

  16. I do envy those guys who look so sleek and hairless.

    Seriously, don’t. Body hair = virility. Most women, I dare say, like their men to be men. The ones who prefer hairless pretty boys have issues.

    Comment by Sommer — December 3, 2006 @ 11:36 pm |Reply

  17. Thanks, Sommer. That’s reassuring.

    Comment by teofilo — December 3, 2006 @ 11:43 pm |Reply

  18. Was going back to read the blogs that answered my accidental meme and saw we had the same answer re: chastity.

    Comment by Marisa — December 10, 2006 @ 12:55 pm |Reply

  19. That’s actually more of an intellectual than emotional response for me. Although I’m a virgin and I’m not happy about that, societal glorification of virginity hasn’t played a large role in my life. I just think it’s a harmful thing in general.

    Comment by teofilo — December 11, 2006 @ 12:58 am |Reply

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